| [book information], Prologue (Connor's voice) | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 1:52 | |
| A Note from the Authors, Acknowledgments | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 3:35 | |
| A Voice | Val Emmich | | | 3:41 | |
| Absolutely Still | Val Emmich | | | 5:05 | |
| At The Risk Of Sounding | Val Emmich | | | 5:28 | |
| Black It Out | Val Emmich | | | 3:35 | |
| Bury Me | Val Emmich | | | 3:18 | |
| Bury Me | Val Emmich | | | 3:20 | |
| Careful | Val Emmich | | | 3:22 | |
| Catalyst | Val Emmich | | | 4:05 | |
| Catalyst | Val Emmich | | | 4:05 | |
| Cover Up | Val Emmich | | | 4:08 | |
| Darling Denise | Val Emmich | | | 2:58 | |
| Darling Denise | Val Emmich | | | 2:58 | |
| Decadent Decline | Val Emmich | | | 3:45 | |
| Detach | Val Emmich | | | 3:06 | |
| Don't Wanna Go Home | Val Emmich | | | 3:36 | |
| Down | Val Emmich | | | 3:09 | |
| Down | Val Emmich | | | 3:09 | |
| Epilogue, part 1 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 4:26 | |
| Epilogue, part 2 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 3:24 | |
| Epilogue, part 3 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 4:48 | |
| Epilogue, part 4 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 5:54 | |
| Epilogue, part 5 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 3:08 | |
| Epilogue, part 6 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 5:08 | |
| Epilogue, part 7 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 6:45 | |
| Epilogue, part 8 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 6:05 | |
| First Try | Val Emmich | | | 3:01 | |
| Get on With It | Val Emmich | | | 3:32 | |
| Get on With It | Val Emmich | | | 3:24 | |
| Get On With It | Val Emmich | | | 3:29 | |
| Got a Habit Now | Val Emmich | | | 3:18 | |
| High Noon | Val Emmich | | | 4:04 | |
| Hurt More Later | Val Emmich | | | 3:44 | |
| Hurt More Later | Val Emmich | | | 3:34 | |
| I Don't Get The Joke | Val Emmich | | | 6:16 | |
| If They Come Again | Val Emmich | | | 5:03 | |
| In Pieces | Val Emmich | | | 3:50 | |
| Last Day | Val Emmich | | | 4:53 | |
| Medical Display | Val Emmich | | | 3:48 | |
| New Year's Resolution | Val Emmich | | | 2:49 | |
| No More | Val Emmich | | | 3:22 | |
| Now Is No Time | Val Emmich | | | 5:21 | |
| Panic Attack | Val Emmich | | | 3:16 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 1, part 1 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 6:38 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 1, part 2 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 6:20 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 1, part 3 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 4:38 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 2, part 1 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 4:02 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 2, part 2 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 5:29 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 3, part 1 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 6:19 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 3, part 2 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 5:25 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 3, part 3 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 4:25 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 3, part 4 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 3:38 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 3, part 5 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 3:49 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 4, part 1 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 5:44 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 4, part 2 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 4:16 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 4, part 3 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 4:22 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 4, part 4 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 5:57 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 5, "One" (Connor's voice) | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 7:17 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 5, part 1 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 6:43 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 5, part 2 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 5:45 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 5, part 3 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 5:07 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 6, "Two" (Connor's voice) | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 4:21 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 6, part 1 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 7:06 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 6, part 2 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 4:37 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 6, part 3 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 4:26 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 7, part 1 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 4:26 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 7, part 2 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 5:14 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 7, part 3 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 7:09 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 8, part 1 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 4:11 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 8, part 2 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 6:55 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 8, part 3 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 7:09 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 8, part 4 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 6:38 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 9, part 1 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 6:42 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 9, part 2 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 3:08 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 10, "Three" (Connor's voice), part 1 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 7:04 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 10, "Three" (Connor's voice), part 2 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 4:24 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 10, part 1 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 4:54 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 10, part 2 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 3:36 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 11, part 1 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 6:35 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 11, part 2 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 6:56 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 11, part 3 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 5:57 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 12, part 1 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 7:16 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 12, part 2 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 5:42 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 12, part 3 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 5:17 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 13, part 1 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 6:53 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 13, part 2 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 2:45 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 13, part 3 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 5:49 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 14, "Four" (Connor's voice) | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 4:18 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 14, part 1 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 5:44 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 14, part 2 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 6:47 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 14, part 3 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 7:20 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 15, "Five" (Connor's voice) | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 1:47 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 15, part 1 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 3:29 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 16, part 1 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 6:35 | |
| Part 1, Chapter 16, part 2 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 2:59 | |
| Part 2, Chapter 17, part 1 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 5:58 | |
| Part 2, Chapter 17, part 2 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 2:24 | |
| Part 2, Chapter 17, part 3 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 7:01 | |
| Part 2, Chapter 17, part 4 | Val Emmich with Steven Levenson, Benj Pasek & Justin Paul read by Ben Levi Ross, Mike Faist and Mallory Bechtel | | | 4:56 | |
